When GOD says Yes....

So I have been here in Belize for 10 months already...I know you're like uhhhh thought you just got there.  Well truth is that is how it feels.  How time flies when you are having fun and even if you're not.  So part of me being here has been about me finding my way.  Trying to figure out what's next, where will we go and what will we do.

For the past 6-7 months or so I have had this idea and while I felt like YEAH! this is it when it first came to me, sometime afterwards I was like uhhhhh....this feels like everything else.  What I mean is that I am the QUUUUEEEEEEN of a good idea but in the end a lot of my ideas don't stick with me.  Not that they are not good ideas just that they are not necessarily good for now.  Still I didn't discard it (as I never really do any of my ideas) but this time I just held it and let it stew and prayed and tried to listen (still listening) and I think this may be it.  In the last week or so I have had two REALLY good links to this idea and I am thinking we may have lift off.

I recently read something (don't ask me where-oh here it is-http://www.echoinggreen.org/work-on-purpose/ten-principles ):

"Fear Means Go
Distinguish between healthy fears and the kind of barrier fears that stem from your insecurities. Your barrier fears are signals that you need to GO…not away from that which scares you, but toward it."

(This is going to be on MY Oprah Master Class by the way)

I don't know if this resonates with anyone reading this but "ironically" enough I had just acknowledged that I am afraid when I found this.  I am afraid of failing yes but I am also afraid of succeeding.  I realized too that I am having all of these dialogues in my head about what I don't know and how I can't ask and what if I get there and I just can't do it...then I found this.  Cognitive Behavior Therapy (cause you know I'm a Master's level social worker now-woop! woop!) says that when you are having these negative dialouges you counteract them with a positive one.  

So instead of saying I can't, I'm saying light my path and lead the way.  Instead of saying I don't know I'm saying I need help and when GOD says YES I'll be ready.  Like the guy that knew how he would spend his lottery money before he won it....

SO even though I'm still a little afraid...ok a lot...I'm saying instead SEND ME I"LL GO!